I hate this.
I hate us.
I hate what I have to say to stay with you.

I hate what I have to conceal.
I hate what I have to act out.
I hate the person I've become.

I hate what you make be want to be.
I hate what you've made me.
I hate lying to myself and the world.

I hate the days.
I hate the nights.
I hate thinking I will never change.

I hate giving in.
I hate holding back.
I never want to tell you the truth.